I reckon that we need to understand that everything keeps changing all the time and remember about it. Even Me writing this post will be a bit different after completing it. I often hear others saying how hurt and disappointed they are because roads parted between them and a friend or friends or a romantic partner. And yes, it does hurt, it actually makes you super sad. I think we undergo some sort of mourning anyway, even though we tend not to admit it. I was that person as well, blaming those who decided to leave because it did not make sense to me back then. A close friend of mine stopped answering my phone calls and emails. It was something I could not grasp so I rang and rang. Eventually, after a month of silence from her part, I gave up. It hurt as did not know what happened, I was actually very concerned about her. I also blamed myself and asked never going to be answered questions like: Did I say anything that hurt her? And it was nine months later, in December when I got a text from her with an apology for not being in touch and asking me to talk to her if I still wanted to talk. I was so happy to hear she was ok, we spoke on the phone and it felt like we spoke just a week ago. I asked her the reason she went silent and it was all fine for a couple of months. And she disappeared again, even though I asked her to let me know if there was anything that would bother her on my part.
That time, I still sent texts and I rang and received no reply. However, there was a difference that time as I stopped contacting her within a week. I decided to let her go for whatever reason she had, it was her decision, her reasoning and I had nothing to do with it. Friendship is one of my top values in life and I was at a stage when I wanted to spend time with people who were lifting me up, quality people. I began to seek ease and flow and no drama in my friendships. I realised that she had to go in order to make room for new people in my life. I had similar situations later as well yet I already knew what was going on. I was no longer on the same vibratory length with those friends and it was ok to be this way. It did not mean they were bad or I was bad or they were ahead of me etc. It simply meant their purpose was done and it was my job to learn from them entering into my life in first place. You see I realised that I have grown and I learnt a couple of lessons for the future. One of them was to appreciate your friends while they are in your life and the other was: I wanted to have people around me whom I could grow with and expand.
In those moments, when someone is leaving you, you feel sad and disappointed ( even though you still have other friends and family). I definitely felt ABANDONED. I felt REJECTED. And I was having way too many conversations in my head about all possible reasons they left. However, I want you to know that it is good for you when that friend you used to go to school leaves, that guy you were dating, simply disappears, that girlfriend you had so much in common stops answering your calls. It means you have evolved and suddenly there is a room for someone new in your life.
I am very grateful for all the agony of negative emotions I had in those moments for they taught me to move forward and led to some beautiful folks I have now in my life. 🙂
There is always something better ou there, something you can not see yet!
Light and Hugs from Me