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New Year New Zest

Festive time and New Years Eve usually make us ponder more about life, we pause and we think about the year past. I felt that way this year too. I spent  Christmas at home in Poland and I could not refrain from reflecting on the year gone. Do not get me wrong I think there is so much value in revisiting the experiences you had. I actually wrote a list of what I achieved last year and it put a smile on my face as so many dreams came true. I also took down my vision board and put it on the table. While I was coming to sit on the sofa, I accidentally hit my knee against the glass table and the pain was  excruciating to the extent that it made me cry. So here I was sitting and looking at my 2017 vision board, crying because of the pain and it hit me: I was not merely sobbing due to the physical pain, it was also due to all those images that has not come into my reality yet.   The feeling of not being good enough came back to me, the feeling of loneliness appeared, the feeling of being judged emerged. I scolded myself. I felt like I was wrapped in quite a blanket of emotions and it brought me to my knees. I wished there was a quick fix to that miserable state of being. Who does not want a magic pill to get over all those negative emotions faster, right? But hey, life is not about shortcuts nor ready made remedies. Instead of going into the pity party mode ( that used to be me ages ago), I took  some deep breaths in ( I have learned the Wim Hof breathing technique – I will share my experience about that in other post) and stopped at every single image on my vision board that has not showed up yet.  Not only had I noticed that I  made such  great expectations of myself but I also came to a greater realisation: I did not take a consistent action in order to achieve them. I actually quit half way on some of my desires, I gave up and the reason for that appeared suddenly as well. I was scared to change direction of my life ( even tough the images on vision board were showing that it was something I dreamt about) as it meant going into unknown and being vulnerable as never before should my dreams come true. That fear of being seen as I am, the fear of being judged has been hanging in there, stopping me from celebrating dreams now. What struck me even more was that I looked up to others for acceptance, for approval that it was alright for me to grow. Even my body has been giving me signs that I was stamping my feet in the same place as the pain in my joints got worse. It became clear to me that my mind has been affecting the way I feel physically too.
So today, as I was wiping the tears  crawling on my cheeks, still feeling that I failed myself, I wrote a permission slip to myself: “Every day as I wake up, I accept myself the way I am and I accept the way I feel and I move forward slowly yet steadily.  I also did a short meditation as I felt like it was the best thing I could do. Afterwards, I picked one desire I would like to come to fruition this year and I took one small step towards it. I sent one email I was contemplating for so long. Did it scare me? Yes. Did it excite me? Hell, yeah. And it did liberate me from the handcuffs of fear of being visible. The relief I feel now is so immense. Mistakes, failures, fears – they do not define you or me!
What I would like you to get from my today’s experience is this: when facing unpleasant circumstances, when you feel lost or broken, when you feel depressed, not good enough, please do not feel bad because you are experiencing all those negative emotions, do not hide them and pretend they did not make you feel miserable or cranky or anxious. Do not sweep them under the carpet. Instead make them your allies as they are the moments in life you grow, and take a small step to achieve your goals or improve your circumstances. Please remember, every time you reach a low point in life, embrace it, surrender to it and accept it (acceptance does miracles)  as from LOW there is only one way: UP!  and you have time to get there!
Happy New and Zesty Year Folks
2018 – Year of self acceptance and more visibility for me.
I raise a glass of kombucha to learn to raise above any challenges in 2018
What about you? What is 2018 going to be about for you?
Light and Hugs from Me

Monika  {)ii(}

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Wishing Myself this Christmas

I am in my family home in Poland, celebrating Christmas and I am in awe of how much Christmas wishes we send to those around us and far away, neglecting the person closest to us – YOU!
I have been thinking about it recently and it struck me that we abandon wishes for ourselves. because it is weird, because who sends wishes to themselves? I mean, come on, wishing something yourself looks silly, awkward.  I know I wanna wish those around me lovely time because it is important to me, however this year I thought about myself first and I challenge you to do it as well.
My wishes to Me:
“My Dear Monika, my best buddy, my super girl, I wish you peace of mind and relaxation as I know you have worked hard all year. I wish you more ease coz I know ease has been important to you. I also wish you creative time coz I know how much you love expressing yourself when you have more free time. I wish you more awareness when being judgemental and ways to drop the judgement more easily because I know it has been bothering you too much this year. Most importantly, I wish you to  open your heart widely and show your vulnerability as I know that your deepest desire is to love immensely.
with all my love, Me to You.
Merry everything and a happy always :)”
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Hand luggage only is my holiday one and only

Heavy suitcase, luggage charges, anxious you are not going to catch the bus due to the long luggage discharge after landing? I have been there!  But I got myself sorted and so can you. Swap your baggage for cabin luggage (oh rhymes!) when you travel. That has been my mojo for the last seven years now and I have not looked back once.

I know and  I hear you saying: ‘But I have so many things to carry with me! I need this dress and that T-shirt and oh  damn where will I pack the third pair of shoes?” I hear ya sister or brother!  Countless stuff to pack that I simply did not even wear once when I travelled. How crazy was that?! Not to mention space it was taking up.  So I decided to stop. Basta! No more! Farewell to heavy baggage! I actually felt pretty light when I made up my mind. Out of sight out of mind  – so they say. Clearing your wardrobe and chest of drawers before that helps immensely. Yet this is another post to write sometime later.

So once before my voyage to Barcelona, I opened my little navy blue hand luggage ( I love navy – I am a sea girl!) and I was like: “Where for God’s sake am I supposed to put all of my stuff? This bag is way too small!” It is hilarious how quickly we go back to the old habit once we decide to commence a new one. Challenges! But I do like them!

I opened my wardrobe and threw all summer clothes. It was October yet the weather there was amazingly sunny and well I was to wear some of them in the end.  I sat and thought and thought and thought and finally I came up with the written list of my must haves:

  • a small bag (colour depends on my mood – no it doesn’t! 😀 )
  • a purse – eh no – small tiny one to have my card, travel document ( thank you for Polish IDs – credit card size and it gets you everywhere in Europe)
  • underwear – always new for each day ( hey panties!)
  • two swimming suits – I love swimming
  • three pairs of shorts
  • two dresses (I tend to choose those that do not require ironing)
  • colourful tops – my favourite ones
  • three pairs of shoes ( those include trainers I wear when travelling, flat sandals and sports sandals for comfort when sightseeing)

On me: jacket or hoody, scarf, jeans, sunglasses and the biggest shoes ( trainers for me!) It is amazing how many items your body can contain. What a great vehicle!

Additionally, I pack toiletries (essential oils are my no. 1, toothbrush, small toothpaste, face cream, sun cream and mascara and lip balm and lipstick),  phone charger, current book I  am reading and a note book ( there is always some inspiration emerging when I am totally relaxed in new places).  The above list of clothes keeps changing due to the seasons obviously.

I always think if a given item is going to be useful before I throw it in the luggage – I avoid taking stuff just in case. When in doubt, I consult my intuition – it always knows best.

One thing I have learnt from travelling with hand luggage is this:

The lighter it is the fewer worries and discomfort I have. And lets be honest our  well being and mood are a key while travelling.

Prepare your bag wisely and stay happy!


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Hugging me hugging you – is the only human thing I can do for You

Did you know that the word hug derives from the Scandinavian word “hugga” which simply means “to console, to comfort”?  I love hugs, I mean I truly can not imagine life without them! They are the simplest ways to comfort and show affection.

And no no I was not brought up in the family where hugs were given on daily basis. My dad was away for work most of the year and my mum was the one that had to comfort three kiddos. Not an easy job certainly! When my dad was coming back home, I did give hugs and they were reciprocated. I do remember those precious moments as they were rare. And then my mum she was hugging us yet not that often as I guess her priority back then was to keep us safe and healthy as she was basically bringing us on her own.  I also have a memory of being hugged in my romantic relationships and my super immense longing for hugs. I had that urge to be held tight like forever! I was basking in cuddles and I loved that feeling. And then kids, even though I do not have my own yet, I have always been surrounded by them. My nephew – his hugs were and still are the source of the amazing feeling of love and joy  I always sense when embracing him. My best friends’ kiddo who is simply an angel to me, has always been ready to shower me with hugs every time I see him. We can learn so much from kids when it comes to showing true feelings, don’t we?

I reckon, over the years, I have evolved with affection ( yet deep inside I think I have always been liked that I just did not know that) and I shower my friends with hugs every time we meet. I think I have become more open to hugging new friends and strangers as well. Somehow, it has become as natural to me as having a healthy breakfast which is a must to me in the morning! ( High five for oaties!)

HUGS  are the most elementary acts of kindness and humanity we can give to ourselves  (self-care first!) and those around us. Have you ever been hugged so tight you felt the other person’s heartbeat and it all made you feel so safe, so light and calm like you were in a bubble of ever present warmth? I certainly have!

So my piece of advice is this:

Hug someone today as it was the greatest hug you can give and wait until you are let go first.

Hugs are powerful. Hugs are magic. Hugs keep us warm. Hugs unite. Hugs comfort.

Hugs are free.

Light and Hugs from Me




in Breakfasts, Healthy Recipes

Omm my Oats

After years of eating sandwiches for my breakfasts, oats have eventually made their place in my bowl. I usually have them with rice or coconut milk ( plant milk – yes!).   I sometimes can not believe I did not eat them at all! As far as I remember I always hated milk as a kid and was avoiding it as often as I could. (Well, sometimes my grandma sneaked it by adding some cocoa powder to it.) And then milk and oats – that couple did not look right for me, probably due to my lack of feelings for milk.

Nowadays, my morning bowl consists of gluten free oats, cocoa powder, nut butter and whatever fruit and nut I have a liking for.

This morning oaties:

*5 tablespoons of gluten free oats ( I just put boiling water and left them set aside for 5 minutes)

*1 tablespoon of cocoa powder

*some goji berries

*1 kiwi

*some pecans

I always have energy and I am actually happy when I look at it. My breakfasts are the fuel for the great start of the day.  I am so happy I managed to change my morning food. I am joyful about being vegetarian. I rejoice in preparing new dishes, experimenting with new recipes. Although I still have a lot to learn about nutrition, I have become number one fan of my body, for it is a vessel that carries me every single day and it is my job to take care of it daily! 🙂

Hugs and Light from Me


in Dinners, Healthy Recipes

Mish mash salad ala moi

I have days when I simply  throw in the bowl whatever veggies I have and suddenly a salad appears. I know. Miraculous for sure! 🙂 It happened the odd weekend ago. I had some spinach, cauliflower and some basil pesto that I thought would simply serve me over a week. Nope. It did not and as I have a bigger amount of it, an idea for salad came into my mind.  So below a super simple recipe for nutritious I think salad ala moi:


*1 small cauliflower

* some spinach of choice

* basil pesto

Wash the cauliflower, cut it into small chunks and pour hot water over it. Drain and  add spinach and pour pesto. Toss everything and voila! 🙂 Serve straight away as I did – I was way too hungry to resist.


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Why people are leaving you and Why it is for your good

I reckon that we need to understand that everything keeps changing all the time and remember about it. Even  Me writing this post will be a bit different after completing it. I often hear others saying how hurt and disappointed they are because roads parted between them and a friend or friends or a romantic partner. And yes, it does hurt, it actually makes you super sad. I think we undergo some sort of mourning anyway, even though we tend not to admit it.  I was that person as well, blaming those who decided to leave because it did not make sense to me back then. A close friend of mine stopped answering my phone calls and emails. It was something I could not grasp so I rang and rang. Eventually, after a month of silence from her part, I gave up. It hurt as did not know what happened, I was actually very concerned about her. I also blamed myself and asked never going to be answered questions like: Did I say anything that hurt her?  And it was nine months later, in December when I got a text from her with an apology for not being in touch and asking me to talk to her if I still wanted to talk. I was so happy to hear she was ok, we spoke on the phone and it felt like we spoke just a week ago. I asked her the reason she went silent and it was all fine for a couple of months. And she disappeared again, even though I asked her to let me know if there was anything that would bother her on my part.

That time, I still sent texts and I rang and received no reply. However, there was a difference that time as I stopped contacting her within a week. I decided to let her go for whatever reason she had, it was her decision, her reasoning and I had nothing to do with it. Friendship is one of my top values in life and I was at a stage when I wanted to spend time with people who were lifting me up, quality people. I began to seek ease and flow and no drama in my friendships. I realised that she had to go in order to make room for new people in my life. I had similar situations later as well yet I already knew what was going on. I was no longer on the same vibratory length with those friends and it was ok to be this way. It did not mean they were bad or I was bad or they were ahead of me etc. It simply meant their purpose was done and it was my job to learn from them entering into my life in first place.  You see I realised that I  have grown and I learnt a couple of lessons for the future. One of them was to appreciate your friends while they are in your life and the other was: I wanted to have people around me whom I could grow with and expand.

In those moments, when someone is leaving you, you feel sad and disappointed ( even though you still have other friends and family). I definitely felt ABANDONED. I felt REJECTED.  And I was having way too many conversations in my head about all possible reasons they left. However, I want you to know that it is good for you when that friend you used to go to school leaves, that guy you were dating, simply disappears, that girlfriend you had so much in common stops answering your calls. It means you have evolved and suddenly there is a room for someone new in your life.

I am very grateful for all the agony of negative emotions I had in those moments for they taught me to move forward and led to some beautiful folks I have now in my life. 🙂

There is always something better ou there, something you can not see yet!


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in Inspiration, Last news

How I overcame the craziness of being unorganised and tired when flying home


First of all, I must say flying was definitely not my cup of tea. Nope. And it was not for being afraid of being up in the air. I hardly ever get scared or anxious when boarding a plane. What was driving me crazy in the past, was the fact that I totally sucked in organizing stuff for my flights home which was making me fatigue most of the times.  Looking for flights, booking the bus tickets, preparing my snacks for travel ( I used to just get some random fruit and sandwiches which I was buying in the local shop), leaving  home on time, getting the right bus ( I was a master of getting the wrong ones ie. an hour later bus which made me feel anxious whether I would manage to do the checkin on time), organizing transport from the airport and eventually getting sh.. done when I am actually at my destination. I felt frustrated. I felt angry. I felt like I was always in a hurry. Quick. Quick. You gotta hurry up Monika – I kept telling to myself . AAAHHHHH.  I kept cursing and saying: What the f..? Next time, I am definitely getting better. Next time, I will be more efficient. Eeee. No. That did not happen that rapidly. I went like that for years and then I said: NO MORE! I mean there had to be more pleasant way to deal with it. Because you see when I am going home, it is not like I am going to have there only relaxing time with my family. It also involves my dentist check ups ( Yes, I still trust my dentist since I was 12 years old),  my further family visits ( they all live minimum 1 hour drive from my home town), shopping ( I still have this crave for some Polish brands – shoes baby!) and some paperwork stuff as well.

And since I have been flying home quite often, the arrangement of stuff to do was overwhelming most of the times. Luckily, it has changed for good and I have had very peaceful and flowing time. How did I do it? I planned in advance. Yes. Nothing strange. No app needed. NO. Just pen and paper. And it works every time. It does!

What I do is creating a to do list and to be list for the voyage and time at home. You may be wondering what the to be list is. You can check my past post about it here:

For each day, I simply write down a mini plan with date and time and a to be list – it is simply a list of feelings I wish to experience before, during and after travelling.  I sometimes take a photo of it to have it handy on my mobile. ( Yes, I am sometimes forgetful! ) Both lists make my travels easier and hassle free and then Law of Attraction is taking care of everything as I am already in a vibration of having all sorting out for me in the best possible and smooth way. When writing that plan, I feel like I am already experiencing what I wish to experience.  🙂

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in Dinners, Healthy Recipes

Chana masala by Me

I have always been a fan of Indian spices and chana masala definitely combines the amazing taste of them.

Garam masala, cumin, turmeric, coriander make a perfect combination, their smell  entangles you once you add them to the pot. I made that dish over the weekend and it makes my lunch today as well.

Here are the ingredients:

  • 2 red onions chopped
  • 1 small piece of ginger nicely chopped
  • 1 can of chickpeas ( drained)
  • 1 zucchini chopped
  • 1 tin of coconut milk
  • 100 g of three colour quinoa
  • 2 tbsp of sunflower oil
  • spices: * 1 tsp of cumin, * 1 tsp of coriander, *1tsp of paprika, *2tsp of garam masala, *2 tsp of turmeric, some fresh pepper and salt to your liking

Boil quinoa and put it aside.

Heat one tablespoon of oil and put the chopped onions and ginger in a pot. Once the onions start to be getting golden, add all spices and fry it for 3 minutes.

Add chopped zucchini, chickpeas and coconut milk and boil it for ten minutes. Add boiled quinoa. Let all the ingredients soak in that flavor. Above spice with coconut create a very aromatic smell and they always make me eat straight from the pot, once the dish is done.  I can hardly ever wait.

I like to have chana masala with some raita on the side.

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in Dinners, Healthy Recipes

Rock the beet brown rice

It was supposed to be a well followed through recipe from one the cookbooks I have, however it turned out to become my own creation eventually. This yummy dish is perfect for dinner and it so easy to make.


* 3 bigger beetroots ( cooked and chopped)

* 1 onion ( chopped)

* 2 gloves of garlic ( chopped)

* 250 g of basmanti brown rice

* 2 litres of vegetable stock

* some pepper and salt

* two bigger kale leaves

Chop and boil the beetroots. In a small pan, fry onion and garlic until soften, add rice and cooked beets. Cook for 2-3 minutes. Add some salt and pepper. Add stock and leave all ingredients on low flame, allowing the rice to soak in them. It will take you 30 minutes or a bit more to cook. Afterwards, wash and tear kale leaves into the dish and mix well.

It turned out to be so much for me that I had that dish for two days. 🙂

Enjoy! Bon Appetite and follow to my Instagram profile @azesty_life  to see the end result of that dish 🙂


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